Alone

Alone

There are some days.
Some days where you just want to be alone.
But deep down,
You don't.

Some days where you just want to sit in front of your computer,
And you pray.
You pray that,
That small chat box pops up.
But to you,
It's not just a small chat box.
It makes you feel good.
It makes you feel like people care.
It makes you feel like maybe,
Maybe you strike the hearts of people around you.

But what happens,
Is that you end up sitting down,
Staring at your computer,
Alone.
No flashing red boxes,
Nothing new,
No one there.

You start to wonder, 
Did you do something wrong?
Why isn't anyone going to talk with you?

So you check your chat box.
You stare at all the names online,
And think about the ones that are probably just invisible.
You feel betrayed.
Nobody cares enough to do to you a simple deed.
A deed that, to you, isn't that simple.

So you go and chat with other people.
You have a good conversation,
For about 5 minutes.
Then you get the "sent at 11:11 on Thursday"
And the only thing you can think about,
Is making that wish.
And you wish that,
Maybe its not you.
Maybe its them.
Maybe they are just busy.
And you sit there,
Alone.

Small things.
Maybe just try them out.
I know I do.
And I'll be here for you,
only if you want me to.
~Hahasmile4me