The Past

The Past

It's coming back,

The past.

What I've done in the past,

Is coming up,

To haunt me.

To scar me.

It made me miss am opportunity,

It made me hurt,

It made me remember.

All of this stuff really happened,

All of this stuff really hurt,

But worst of all,

All of this stuff can happen again.

So please lord,

Bless me,

Make me pure,

And cure me from this sickness.

Make the future better than the past. 

~hahasmile4me

Trust

Trust
Sometimes all you need to do is trust in someone.
You can't be insecure,
You can't loose hope,
You can't do anything,
But trust.

Even when everything goes back,
You must have that faith,
The faith that you can entrust so much with that person,
But no matter how untrustworthy other people have been to me,
Or how untrustworthy I've been to others,
I will try my best,
To just trust you.
Please do your best,
And I'll try to do my best.
So heres to trust.
~hahasmile4me

Hoping

Hoping
I'm here hoping,
That I won't mess up like I did before,
That nothing will go wrong,
And if something does go wrong,
We'll have the strength to overcome and push through,
And be stronger than ever.

I hope that there won't be any hurt,
I hope that there won't be any tricks,
I hope that it'll last,
I hope that money will have no influence,
I hope that we can put everything aside,
And enjoy the time we spend.

I hope that we all have the right intentions,
I hope that no matter what the circumstance,
It will be ok.
I just hope.
~hahasmile4me

This Feeling...

This feeling
Oh gosh,
It has been so long since I've felt this feeling.
2 and 1/2 years.

Something that I hope is mutual,
Something that I hope will last,
Something that I hope that I can give it my all,
Just so I can make this feeling last,
Just so I don't get that feeling,
Just so I can be happy.

I pray that God will be behind me,
That he will be able to make us all happy.
I pray that this feeling will last,
But the only thing I can do now,
Is try my best, and trust in you.

No matter what happens,
I will always thank you for this feeling.
~hahasmile4me

Caged

Caged

It's summer time.

My time to shine.

My time to have fun.

My time to relax.

Sike.

Some people just don't get it.

Some people just want it all.

Some people say it isn't for them,

But it is.

If it isn't for me,

Who is it for?

You tell me.

"Oh, you are such a good child,"

"You've grown up so much,"

"The only thing I hate about you are those video games,"

Really?

Should such a small thing that makes me happy,

Be the ONLY reason we fight?

Can you leave me be?

I can't run,

I can't escape,

I'm caged.

Why?

Why can't you run?

Because people are stubborn.

Because people are so selfish that they don't listen.

They have two portions of mouth and not enough portions of ear.

I almost thought that I could do things because I wanted to,

Not for you.

But I was wrong.

So now I'm here,

And I'm caged.

What else can I do?

~hahasmile4me

Ready

Ready
Are you?
A question I ask myself all the time,
Am I ready?

Ready for what?
Ready for the world out there,
Ready for the people out there,
Ready for the future.

I don't know what is coming,
I don't know how to face it.
I don't know how I'll act,
I don't know how I'll pull through.
I'm clueless.

Will I be ready?
I guess we'll have to see.
~hahasmile4me